Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Hard day
Today marks 3 months since dad passed away. I woke at about 1 a.m. with a feeling of dread. Today has been really hard. The weather today is cold and rainy, and I realized that I don’t remember what the weather was like July 21. I don’t remember a lot about that time. I spent much of the day fighting back the sadness that is threatening to take over. I would like to write much more in depth, but this is all I have in me today. I miss you dad.
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The weather was mirroring what was inside of you today. There are so many 'firsts' and so many 'anniversaries', and so very many things that will make you miss him so much that you can't stand it. But, there will also be memories that are so sweet, or so funny, or so tender, and other memories that are just plain 'stupid'....they will all shape your heart and the wonderful ways you remember your dad. You honor him with not only the joy you remember him with, but also the pain. I hope you can rest well tonight and have sweet dreams. I keep you in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteLike Elisa said, honor your sadness. Let your sadness come and it will not linger. Every time you're feeling sad let your dad know and I bet he'll have a special hug just for you.
ReplyDeleteI'm hugging you tonight hon. Call me if you want to talk.
All I can say is I love you and I hope your pain is less tomorrow.
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